I've arrived. Again.

beautiful. fly. fearless...



I've found that once I've stopped running from myself, life became easier. I let go of the unhealthy loads around me. This included "friends", social networks, and feelings. Without these I've found myself smiling a lot for no reason these past few days. I feel as free as I once did back in high school. I've returned to my roots. I've rediscovered my "fearlessness". I keep with me the lessons from all my past mistakes and move forward without an ounce of fear. I'm on a new mission, everything in my mind MUST be conquered, good and bad.

I'm taking more time to focus on the more important details within life itself and within my own life. I'm beating myself up less often for not being perfect. Any negative energy is no longer welcome within my bones. The poison I kept within me for so long no longer has a home here. I'm doing new things. I'm trying new things. As much as I've hated taking pictures of myself in the past, I took a bunch earlier today. The photo above is one of them. The session brought back my liking for photography.

I like how a good photo is dramatic in its own way. It's a reflection of a moment in time. Those who have nothing to do with the photo either quickly glance it over and move on to the next one or try to figure out what story the photo is trying to convey. For those who do have something to do with a photo, at least if they're like me, see it as a nostalgic moment. Thinking back to the moment caught on film. For me I remember the sights, the sounds, and my identity in the world at the time. That's what has encouraged me to start taking pictures.

I want to be able to look back when I'm older and see my life in slow motion. I'd like to be able to flip through albums and say this was me before the storm. I'd like to flip through and be able to visually recreate that time represented in the page. I'd hear all the songs I was glued to at the time. I'd see the people I shared my life with at the time. I'd look back and smile at all the times, good and bad.

My five senses are my guide through life
Laughter is the key to my survival and youth.
Learning is my guide to growth.
Love may lead to many more tears, but it's the only medicine that will keep my soul healthy.


Seeing: visions of this working out...
Listening to: Charles Hamilton - The Intervention Mixtape